On November 19, 2017, I woke up at 12:30 am, went to the hospital, and had a natural childbirth. I had planned for everything to happen naturally before even getting pregnant. I absolutely HAD to do this because it REALLY meant a lot to me to have this experience. In my mind, there was no other option. (Aside from an unexpected event or emergency).
Before, during and after giving birth, I was conscious, aware, and fully present.
What wasn’t present was any fear, anxiety, self-doubt, or worry. I was amped up and ready to go. I was fully prepared to kick the most ass I had ever kicked in my entire life.
If I were to go back in time and tell the Brianna from years ago that she would accomplish such a thing, she wouldn’t have believed it for one second.
She would have said something like, “Ya right! That’s something a strong person would do! I could never do that!”
I’m not telling you this story to boast or brag about having a baby naturally as I am well aware that women all over the world do this every single day. I’m telling you this story because there’s also a huge group of women around the world who say things like:
“See, I would like to have a natural delivery but I really don’t think I’m capable.”
“I’m definitely not that brave. I wish I was.”
“Thinking about doing that terrifies me, even though it’s something I hope I can do.”
I’ve heard it all and my initial reaction to these women is, “But YOU CAN do it!” I’m sort of like Rob Schneider in all of Adam Sandler’s films but like way less funny.
But seriously, I so badly want women to realize that they have EVERYTHING it takes if all that is stopping them is a mental and emotional block.
I’m telling you, the past Brianna NEVER EVER EVER would have believed she would have what it takes to perform such a feat.
Growing up as a child with severe anxiety and intermittent bouts of depression, I had hundreds of goals, dreams and passions that I never ended up following because I always talked myself out of them. Inadequate. Weak. Way too sensitive. These were the most common adjectives that my mind would throw at me like a bully in a snowball fight. Therefore, every time, I got hit in the face and gave up.
Until that one day I decided to beat the bully up.
Figuratively and literally (my parents cheered me on through the front door). I eventually decided to make the conscious decision to wake up to my reality. To be acutely aware of my thoughts, feelings, emotions, and reactions to any and all situations.
If I never woke up and decided to tackle my life head on and do some deep soul searching, I probably never even would have decided to have a baby in the first place. In fact, I know I wouldn’t have. The REAL JERK that my anxiety was would have ganged up with FEAR to talk me out of it.
If I let that happen, I also never would have had the absolute greatest and coolest experience of my life.
If a natural labor and delivery is something you aspire to do, I want you to fully trust and believe in yourself because if I can do it, so can you.
Here are some things I concentrated on throughout my pregnancy in order to stay laser-focused on my goal:
- It is predicted that humans have been around for 200,000 years. That’s a SH*TLOAD of successful, natural births in there.
- Ninety-five percent of low-risk women could give birth without medical intervention. About one quarter want to, but only 2 percent actually do because they’re not very supported by their doctors to even give it a try.
- Giving birth naturally remains the ideal for women in many countries other than the US.
- I researched the pros and cons of epidural/c-section vs. natural.
- I watched YouTube videos and read articles that focused ONLY on successful, natural deliveries. There is no point in reading or hearing about worst-case scenarios or complications.
- I envisioned myself having a successful, natural birth every single day. I consciously tried to use the power of my mind and the law of attraction to will this.
- I watched YouTube videos and listened to songs that made me feel like I was a straight up BADASS.
- I blocked out all negative thoughts or visions because worrying about it would have been absolutely harmful and unnecessary.
- I adopted the attitude of “I have a plan that I am going to do my best to stick to but whatever happens, happens.” I let nature do its thing.
After my son was born, I was overcome with an indescribable feeling of strength, courage, confidence, and BADASSERY.
In my mind, I was the strongest, badass woman I knew. I couldn’t believe I did it. After that, I felt like I could do anything in the world and that feeling hasn’t left my body. I walked out of that hospital with a strength I had been looking for my entire life. The strength that that little anxious, depressed girl would have done anything for.
That birth experience truly changed me. It pushed me even further down the road on my conscious journey. During labor, I reached down deep (in the spiritual sense you sicko), found a hidden version of myself and finally let her out. She unleashed her fury. It was and still is one of the most incredible things I have ever done.
It made me a better person and turned me into the mother I always hoped I would be.
So, if your pregnancy is considered “low-risk” and you aspire to have a natural labor and delivery, I want you to remember that if I can do it, so can you. Easily. I want you to believe in yourself and your ability as an amazing, strong woman because you CAN DO IT. Giving birth is one of the most natural things in the world.
In conclusion, don’t let fear take over and convince you that you’re not strong enough. It’s way easier to let fear drown out courage but as they say, nothing worth having comes easy and that badass strength and confidence that follows IS WORTH HAVING. I promise you.
Leave a comment or email me with any questions you might have. I am more than happy to support you during your journey.
Stay conscious. Believe in yourself. You really are a badass.